Ever felt that life is showering you millions of tricky situations in a single day just to test how strongly you can stand and whether or not you will realize that giving up is the only choice left? This happens to me at least every three months or so, in return I would just shrug off and laugh at the end of the day. Who are you kidding, life?! I would shrug off and laugh because the truth is I have no clue for certain how to make things work, except probably let the days pass with me doing whatever is needed to be done.
Danica, what the heck are you blabbing about?
I’m talking about responsibilities came unannounced I did not ask for pile up in my room—too much of them to be handled within 24 hours. I want to come clean, though, this is not going to be a post ranting about the things I hate. I am going to praise life and how wonderful it gets whenever it puts me in situations where I can step up my work as a senior student and soon-to-be dipping my
toe soul into the real world.
Just last Thursday I was tasked to direct our production for the final requirement this semester. The play would be Lion King (as for now, tentatively) and it’s not just going to be a production—it is going to be a huge-ass production, with a dragging ooooooo in it. I have directed a few plays during college, but they’re not as big as this one. I’m (together with my batch mates in the behind the curtains production dept.) going to handle 55 freshmen. FIFTY FIVE FRESHMEN. Oh, the horrors. But it is going to be fantastic. It should be. It must! I hope to make the most out of it—not just for me and the rest of the seniors but especially for our freshmen. After all, it is their time to shine, not mine.
Second of which I’m sort of freaking out Thursday midnight was I, and a colleague, were called in for a part-time to staff the season’s production of PETA (Philippine Educational Theater Association) in which we applied for before all the schedules hyped up. It’s a huge opportunity. And it’s the kind of opportunity that doesn’t come automatically. Not to mention the additional knowledge I would learn should I join in the band. But I’m afraid I’m going to have to turn it down as well—let go, like what I did on my previous internship.
The opportunity is one of a kind, but one can only do so much in a given period of time. Aside from this and the directorial job is a short play I take lead for another final requirement of the course. And the final paper we have yet to finish until now.
Noticed how much I used the word final? Everything gets so complicated during the finals!
On the same Thursday night, during the ride home, I can’t help but smile despite of the stressful (yet fulfilling) day. Because once again I feel God’s overflowing grace upon me. He’s kind enough to give me tons of responsibility and trusts me enough to make decisions myself. And with that I will try and not disappoint anyone.
If there’s something I learned from the past (and reoccurring) leap of my fate is that It’s not about how complicated everything gets —it’s all about the attitude toward the troubles I’m facing. No matter what happens at the end of the day, what’s important is I’m alive, and I’m given the obstacles to make me feel that I really am alive. I should be thankful for it.